.Saturday, August 29, 2009 ' 1:28 AM Y
Don't wake me up, unless its in reality ♥
please don't ask me what's going on
because im attempting to forget about it
i've been reading to my past entries
my past diaries
and all i've found something in common.
that common thing has made me think so much
that it caused emotions over flowing
im sorry to edmond, who tried to invite me back to school
for a reunion with the other phss-rians
but i didn't went, it was because i was feeling so wrong and bad
and i didn't want to let you see my past self
after you've actually witness me being cheerful and happy
which is a fraud, i have to say.
i couldn't lift myself out from this unhappiness im experiencing today
i've been lying today, a lot.
i wrote inside my diaries, as usual when i don't blog
and writing couldn't help anymore
i burst out , cried and cried until my eyes were red and swollen
i forgot about my dinner
i forgot about my shower
i was needing a soul to talk to badly
sadly to say, i couldn't be bothered to talk to anyone
and neither anyone talked to me
all i can do, is keep reading ____ ________
until i feel comfort.
i went to shower, and continue crying
i stopped now. i don't know if it'll continue further
i curse my dreams
i curse you!
for making things that's impossible possible
and when i woke up and its reality
i wanted to sleep forever now
at least i'll be happier like that.
sigh. spare me.
nights all
