After a period of time
i finally remember why i decided to private my blog
there was a second reason to it. but well..


Watched how to tame a dragon
i seriously hoped to watch the 3D version one
i think it'll be seriously thrilling
well, next time ba, other movies then


Just now managed to surprise my mum
but my original idea was to sing till she wakes up
for that 1 hour i reached home,
i was desperately making noise to make my mum awake
it was tough, i swore. haha!!


I think i might need an earlier rest tonight
My pimples and zits are outbreaking
either its the weather, the makeup, or the.. woman thing! LOL
i think its the latter rofl!


gotta blast!
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4 days ain't going to get me giving up
but i just read soemthing,
if a crucial factor is missing from the equation
you can't force it, let it go.
even its so, i can try to prove it right?
please dun take it jokingly.
but i just read something

I'm having super dry eyes for using contacts after a while
Well, i think i have slept too much today that i'm still feeling sleepy
I was up until 4 am last morning. LOL


Today was considered as a rather short day for me
Considering the timing i slept
And 2 hours i woke up i had to get ready to go out
Just found out that my gu-zhang is in hospital
But i didn't brought any identification
So was drinking and playing games entertaining myself in Starbucks
Remember i went to my cousin's wedding dinner
I finally realised the reason for him to be so cold to me
He thought i was my brother's girlfriend...


Tomorrow(or rather today) will be out with Nonie i guess
We're like going to Bugis to get some gifts
For my mum, for you know who, and for my uncle(maybe)
Since they birthday is like one after another
Bye bye $$ :/


Tried out the Liquid Chalk just now
I think its like EPIC WIN! :D
Totally love it, and drawing on the mini black board
Oh- My- God!


I have been writing a short story on my phone
Like typing when i can't fall asleep
Some may think its like... Familiar
Ya, its based on true event. LOL
I'm lazy to transfer it to my lappy
Cuz its like... 17 sms long ? so far~
I don't know how to end it, might just leave it like that
Sneak Peek:


"I don't like anybody," said XY over mailing on the phone after answering XX's question.
XX stared at the message wondering if she was imagining things just like how she always was.
Repeatedly, she went back and forth from the received and sent messages,
wondering : "did i do something wrong?"
Restraining from crying in the car because her parents were present,
she replied with tears blurring her sight taking some time :
"so what do you want me to do? Continue, or break off?"

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A year ago, XY asked the same thing to XX.
XX chose to reply with the latter because she was depriving love from her companion.
XX thought: "I'll be fine after a while, it's okay no?"
Eventually, XX realised that after breaking off with XY,
Girls started to swarm around him, that she was getting terribly jealous as well.
Unable to control anymore, XX searched a way to patch back with XY.
It was successful.

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XY replied: " What do you want to do?"
Feeling a tinge of insensitivity from XY,
XX answered to the question
"Let's break"

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You know what? i think i'll stop here
I typed until the 2nd saga (ROFL)
But ii thought it was getting obvious.
no cannot. ROFL, because i swore to protect the event of the story from leaking
better stop. xD but well, its' in my draft
try hacking my blogger and you cuold read as well. HAHA!
nights all!

i'll miss you tonight again
i know you wouldn't want me to
i wished that you would miss me as well.

Eh eh eh
You're going to be gone again
sigh


GUess what?
i had brunch, dinner and supper today
and its all, from the same dishes
sick right?!
But i swear, the soup gets more and more heavenly


I feel so weird today
The so called "EMO" day
I ignored calls (most of them)
felt so bored and time was passing so slow
but when i found a new manga to read
just 13 chapters, i used up like 3 hours of my time
maybe the pages were little longer


I'm missing my darker shade hair
and Im regretting for stopping my hair bleached at this colour
I should have gone for brighter ones to try hehe
I think by the end of the holidays
I;m going to go for professional shop for haircut
get a nice dye and treatment
save it for years LOL


I'm thinking of maybe just dye a lighter brown
(in hopes of getting a nice shade of it to get rid of the yellowish golden)
and curl it? that'll be a new experience. HAHA!
im thinking of getting bangs as well
what do you think? hmm.


I'm back with some blogshoppings
tons of helping ppl to order haha!
fun ah, but i guess im scaring the lady boss
nehh?


Im thinking of going to bugis this sunday
shop for presents. hahaha!
talking about that, i think im forgetting something
better confirm it tomorrow


i think i won't ninja tomorrow
but still, beware of the swinger :)

nights all

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if you hadn't add in the punch line
i would have said i missed you
but all in all, that makes me extra desperate
but well, i won't show it to you
its time to think for you as well
as you always say, its for my own good

Stop it

You're trying to do everything to ignite any
possibility for a fight, a quarrel

Anything to keep us away from each other right?

If I'm in your way

Tell me gently

Don't resort to this kind of method

Because it really troubles me

I just want to know how you really feel

Cause, I don't want to mistake anything again

Tell me, what do you want?

Ahh, leave me without regret can?

ROFL!

I feel like staying up late tonight
I don't feel like sleeping actually
I don't think there was so much of an effect from the nap
But yaeh, maybe just update and go and lie on the bed


I saw a person's fb today
Somehow, i was like thinking
Does she deserve to be treated so nicely?
I don't know
But somehow, it seems to me that...
She gotten some retribution. lols =_=
I wonder if thats a good or a bad thing


I feel like staying until 3
but i guess i couldnt
since i need to wake up at 8 to go to the market with mum
so early >.<
and i don't really like markets. LOL
I guess i'm stuck with the "super"market generation ~_~


I keep thinking and thinking
I wonder if this is the correct thing to do
I'm scared of the result
I don't have the confidence to start it
How leh. LOL

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I didn't suffer a terrible heartbreak
I just couldn't get over with what happened
You just didn't know what i had been through
I feel as if I'm manipulated
And this feeling is coming back
TO you,
**** your life,
You ruined me in a way

You'll be gone if i tell you
I lead a great life right now
I have nothing to worry about
I'm happy


Can i be selfish?

I wanna say something...
I...







shall tell you tomorrow. LOL!
(gomen, this is an expression of trying to add another post on my blog)






joking~ actualy, its kinda late already
i figured i should sleep since i wasn't feeling well
though i might just stone, but well
see you guys in lalalalalal lolololololo hahahaha
land :D

nights!

p.s: with the lalalala nd the lolololol hahahaha, please check out
COmmunist ROll'd

Why is it so hard to act that you're okay when you're not?

But why is it also hard to act that you're not okay when you are.

You're only there when I'm not okay

You disappear when I'm okay

But can I also assume that I'm only THAT important to you

Or rather, that you think i don't really need you?

Why are you fine without me?

If you don't need me, just let me go gently

Don't go on a sudden boycott

Because its harsh on me

Today's plan to go to fareast was cancelled
Poor nonie has fallen sick
While she was sleeping, me and nana had fun
watching AFVs and laughing sadistically
Of course, there were times we "feel the pain"


I'm falling into the deep emo trap again
I hate it badly but its coming to me again
The "other one" that resides within me keep constantly bugging me
My ugly side. haha!


I have ugly thoughts, thats what i feel
I despise that side of me
physically, i can't deny its existence
that's how petty i am.
But i try to keep it away
At least to show the good side to people
But i'm not nicey goody all the time. haha!!


feeling tired, sleeping soon
hope nonie's alright. take care <3

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You keep saying that you like the me better last time
Honestly, i hadn't change
The me inside is still the same
Just that, i thought you might like it
So the me outside changed
You failed to notice it
I'm now badly hurt inside

People like me wishes for a time machine
One that will erase all regrets in life
But you know it ain't possible for now at least
The only thing you can do is to repent and try to cover it
But the hole is freaking big
and the repair is too fragile

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry
All i meant about is one thing
The one thing that kept you confused
The one thing that you never knew
The one thing that i try covering up
The one thing that i'm afraid
The one thing that i hinted to you
The one thing that will co-exist in my dreams
The one thing you avoids
The one thing you're afraid of as well
The one thing that you have no confident about
The one thing you'll never accept about it

Because to you, i've changed
someone you dislike
something you hate
something you'd never expect
I did it all
I tried to leave
But i'm held back by myself
I have to make a choice soon
This is not the reality i wanted

Say, someone just made me realise the change in me
But its not what normally people are
As in example
How a girl revamp themselves after a heartbreak
ever saw that happening before?


No, it did not happened to me
My reason was more stupid and foolish
and.. abnormal


Honestly, I don't feel good about myself now
I really... don't like the colour. haha!
Truthfully, it ain't a colour i wanted at first
I have no reason to console myself by saying its my fault
I feel like bleaching it again, as in to the colour i want
At least an one time thing you see
But my mother is objecting it now
Because she thinks it looks nice on me


If i don't bleach it, then when do i have to wait till?
I don't have much time to play runway
Because time is passing so fast that I'm losing my mind
And then again i want to cut my hair
Like really to find something that suits me
A big change that looks good on you that kind of thing
But i really hate the process of waiting for hair to grow longer again


The other thing, i have a paranoid hairdresser
"Not nice larh" "Not good on you"
those kind of discouraging words,
she doesn't even want to make the risk to try
Also, the "don't regret ah, i tell you le ah"
If it doesn't comes out good, its even more depressing right?
AND.
the hairstyle i want, she never manages to make it for me
maybe she was trying the "something similar"
and just make a little effort to it.


My brother and mother says just go jean yip
Just one time, do a good one on me
hello, i would want it as well
its freaking $200.
EVEN if you're paying for me
I would feel uncomfortable about it as well
Just like how i did my nails.


Someone just mentioned that maybe the person like the black hair me
I just ran through some of my past pictures
don't you agree? I think it still looks nicer. haha!
maybe im just not used to it.
I think i need another few more months to think about what to do with my hair
maybe years
my hair would reach the floor by then
and then its "Dark hair colour life"
Unless i out of nowhere got famous and be a rockstar or a model
play with all sorts of things.
That'll be cool LOL!
but that kind of life won't happen to me
At least i don't think it will. ROFL!


I've got the sudden urge to write a song
I'm so "inspired" by Kana Nishino
But well, it wouldn't last
I think i will just write crap ROFL!
Because details don't work on songs but books
I don't have the patience to write a book
nor enough touchy vocbulary to last my readers
Also, don't you think sometimes songs are so amazing?
i meant the lyrics. Because
Just a few words, it summarizes the start to the ending
i really admire song writers


Maybe i'll blog some shit crap later
but now, i vented everything out
thank god, i didnt cry just now. LOL
nights~

Hey! check out the new blog songs i have
the songs are not really new, but i'm having my addiction over it now.
There are like 2 songs on shuffle
Tokutemo & Motto by Kana Nishino
I downloaded all of her albums and singles (i think)
Gonna sink into her world later. tata!
here are the lyrics! agree with me won't you?

Tokutemo ft WISE

Meeting you
is like an irreplaceable treasure
Even if we cant see each other right now
I'll always Love you

" What are you doing right now?"
" Are you really just friends?"
I dislike myself everytime i get worried

You’re working hard in a city far away
Did you change the way you laugh?
As time goes by, the things
I don’t know about you grows

Watching the city waves from the ferris wheel.
The television in front of the main street
Why do I look so cold with out you?

Meeting you
is like an irreplaceable treasure
even if your hearts close to mine
I'll always miss you

I want to see you but i cant
I’ll always be waiting for you
No matter how far we are from each other
I love you

My tears…
Why are they overflowing like this...
Love you so baby

When will the mail come
"I’m busy", the phrase you always say
Am I the only that want to see each other?
I felt like that..

The message I received exactly at 10
You said "Its been half a year since we've been going out <3"
Just three lines and a heart makes me so happy

The big hand that wraps mine
The shy smile of yours, all of them are precious to me
I want to feel you near me

Love, Love, Love, Love, Im in Love
Love, Love, Love, Love, Ahh
Love, Love, Love, Love, Im in love
love with you

Remember when we first met
Memories i made with you
It feels like yesterday
(hey baby)
We took a walk at the park holding hands one for me
Your my girlfriend
I really felt i liked you frozen
Ice cream
As we stare into each others eyes
i see dreams about us
Ah As we talk on the phone
I get sad cause we cant see each other
Gotta Stay strong, My love
I don't want to deal with this pain anymore
But we cant stand to be apart from each other

Meeting you
is like an irreplaceable treasure
Even if we cant see each other right now
Always Love you

Even ordinary words
Become my precious treasures
With just that, I can be strong
So thank you

Forever LOVE
I want to see you, I can’t help missing you
Love you so baby

I’m not myself if it's not you
If it isn't me, you’re not yourself too right?
No matter how far we are apart
I love you




and my fav...
Motto

I want to see you right now
I want to hear more of your voice
Because I think about you so much
I can't help feeling insecure
and I want to ask you again and again
Say, Do you really love me?
I'm just crying cause of you

Hey let's go!
(a)
Say more of your love words
and only let me hear them
Because ambiguous hints no longer enough for me
I want to occupy a bigger space inside your heart
No matter when,
please don't let go of me

Oh...Who are you with??
Where are you??
I can't fall asleep without a response
Your texts, phone calls, and "I want to see you", are always all from me

Just call me back again
I really just want to feel the same as usual
But making fruitless effort by myself seems dumb
I've got that feeling

Repeat (a)

Just a tiny bit more is fine
I want to make sure these feelings
If you pretend like you don't notice,
Give me a sign
there's too much I don't know about my heart
I want more of your love
Please come and see me right now

Oh...We can't meet today either?
Then when can we meet?
You always treat me just like a friend
You never use any emoticons
And I'd only ever get short replies

Just call me back again
Why do you seem to do fine without me?
Say,if this continues on,
maybe it's better if we said goodbye?
I've got that feeling

I want to see you now
I want to hear more of your voice
Because I think about you so much
There's no way for me to just say good bye like this
I really hate myself for this but
I just wanna say "Love you"

Hey let's go!

Repeat (a)

I want to feel you closer to me
I want our feelings to be connected
If I could only be granted one wish
Please don't let go of my heart
I want more and more of your love
Right now, please hold me tightly

Just wanna be with you

Say more of your love words
and only let me hear them
Because ambiguous hints are no longer enough for me
I want to occupy a bigger space inside your heart
No matter when,
please don't let go of me

Birthday's over
18 le
happy days are over
time for more emo hours
do i need any permission from anyone?
no i don't :)


I think that things are pretty messed up this time round
The scar is there, you just can't erase it
And its like the misunderstandings are there
The more you try to clear up, the more it gets worst


Acting all happy, and hyper because its entertaining
But consistently, it shows desperation in it
So much that it gives an opposite effect
Fine, that'll be
I guessed that people would rather see me saddened then happy?
Because they are only there when you are sad
If you're not, byebye and have fun with your life


Contradicting matters,
You feel as if you can't give up
But you feel that you are not fit to be in that position
Then? Make up your mind
Because people are suffering from your inability to decide
But why can't you just give yourself chance?


Hey, did you regret about what you did?
I did. I regretted. I regretted not asking my heart and made that choice
You're being selfish by not holding onto it.
You didn't know how much I went through
You didn't realized the challenges and the obstacles I had
I gritted my teeth and bear through it
I didn't want to make it worse, I talked to others
You said sayonara


Every beings are different in their way
Can't you sense I'm different?
Because I'm different, you're trying to console yourself
that i'm just similar to those people?
They greed over your money
I yearns for something else


It's not that I was being speechless with you
It's that thing you did that made me speechless
I was affected, whether or not you were referring about me
How would i know its not?
A touchy sentence with a sad ending
No matter how i see the front or the back part of it
It's not a thing to be happy about


Hey, you heard that?
There are people out there who thinks i deserve a smile
I deserve better than what you're doing to me
I deserved to be love as well
Stop treating me like an animal or a THING
I have feelings, I express them through actions and words
Just open your eyes and ears, you'll be able to sense them
Because I'm a predictable person


I should stop.
This is switching from 3rd person to 1st person
hehe. ja neh minna san

I suffer the after effects of reading a manga
which consists of all kinds of emotions
Like how you can find the slightest relation to yourself
I feel for the person inside the story


Not just once, i cried reading mangas
dramas, or sometimes even cartoon =_=
But well, its a good area for emotional output
at least i won't get too moodswing if something happens
Lastly, i will always held a toy near to my chest
so when my heartbeat pass through
i could hear it and i won't feel that lonely


Times like this
really sucks
Honestly, im not looking forward to the big day
i've already given hope for it
you know how some people say
the bigger the hope, the bigger the disappointment?
so its best not to bear any


just a couple of minutes ago
a few people wished me happy birthday
i would have appreciated it if they told me tomorrow
hello. im not yet born on the 13 march...
where have you been reading that from? = =


I got this dress for the wedding dinner
but with my hair, i really don't know how to style it tomorrow
I can't appear dischevelled. >.>
gosh -.-


might upload some pictures tomorrow
i think i might turn in early tonight

I didn't really slept last night
at least thats what i thought
because i kept waking up
and i thought that me and bro was actually meeting mum at 11.30
in the end they changed to 10.30
pulled me up at 10
within 15 min get out of the house -.-


Wanted to go si ma lu to bai bai for bro
since ah ma thought he got affected by "things"
but then today there was alot of aunties at the temple to get ang pao
Don't know for what
so went for lunch and went home le lor


Was tired, so went to nap
woke up and cooked for bro and me
then read manga
Still having the after effects of napping
bad headache


Wanted to shower
dad and mum came back
wanted to shower first
dad was like "people want to shower you want to shower"
"just now why don't shower"
aye -.- why is he getting pissed off for
its not as if i take HOURS to shower ._.


Thats why i don't like how people
getting all high and weird after drinking
their attitude
makes me annoyed and irritated
grr -.-

I kept bullying myself
I kept hiding about my feelings
I felt that showing it shows a tint of desperation
The kind of desperation that people does not like
I was the guilty being
So this was made for me to suffer
Is that so?


Some people have Goggle Eyes stuck on their eyes
I mean, if you knew that person for ages
you would have been able to recognize that person no?
How they sound like, how they talk how they walk and so on


I saw someone in the shop today
With her parents. and then i was like talking to my mother
"Eh eh xxxx's mum leh"
my mum did not have any reaction, so she just kept quiet
For nuts, the people there were just walking past
and doing their own things
I was so un-noticable?

We actually walked out the store almost the same time
it was hilarious


I just had a feeling, it was on purpose
well, i don't want to be oversensitive or what
but ya. Totally ignored.com.sg


Was on webcam with yiimei just now
She act cute :X HAHA!
*pssst* xD
Nights all (:
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I was told not to mind other's business
I was told to be confident about who i am
I was told to be brave about things that will be happening
I was told to act dumb
I was told not to be hopeful
I was told to hold on until something might happen
I was told to give up as well

People hinted me to poke into their business
People hissed and pissed about who i am
People discourage future events
People assumed I knew everything
People add fuel to bad events
People hinted more about the impossible
People increased into matters that was none of their business

I love the night, because it's so quiet and serene


I hate the night, because i'm scared of the dark


Can't i just leave my lights on and sleep?


No i can't. But there's a few solution for me to pass through the night


I need company. I need alcohol. I might need something to drive me asleep


Anything that will stop stimulating my mind to think all sorts of stuff

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I love to sleep sideways, because its comfortable


I hate to sleep sideways, somehow it activates me to think


I have to lie on my back and stare at the ceiling


It's not comfortable, I don't like facing the ceiling


I feel exposed, uncomfortable


I need lots of things around my head to provide the security


And blankets to keep myself warm


Because when I'm scared, anxious, nervous


I turn cold, and vulnerable


When this kind of things happen, i wish i had a pair of arms


surround me, give me a hug or so


Just like how mum use to get me to sleep on her arms
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I'm scared trying to fall asleep tonight again

Music is like a therapy
but Music could sometimes make your feelings worst


Just about when i thought i have completely driven my thoughts
away with drowning myself with music
A littlest thing and the coincidental music collided
It felt worst than before


Even know about the feeling of jealousy
Inferiority and the feeling of being incompetent
To add on, you had to even lied and be cheery in the situation
This is bad, real bad
What's gotten into me?


Might say its due to the woman's stuff
But i guess not, its not mood swing
it lasts. like for so long
I'm not handling the situation good this moment
How.

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You need to possess lots of courage
and lots of confidence
determination
and knowledge to do what you want
and to follow your heart
But what if you're scared
even if you have the determination
and you are sure that you would not be shaken
You don't have courage
no confidence
What will you do?
Will you back out?
Will you come to a decision that may lead to
another regrettable choice in future?

Grandma's eye operation was another success
Guess that really means that i'll be alone more often at home
i have been reading mangas i've missed out
and some new ones along
i've on the air con, but im burning inside
like its so hot


Sigh
im troubled by the tiniest thing in the world
even if it could be so insignificant
its bothering me


I wonder sometimes if its because it ain't happening on you
means that you could easily say things as it is
Ignorance is always bliss
The point whereby you don't know or understand a person that well
its the point whereby you know them the best
because when you know them to well
complication comes about
and everything seems as if you do not at all


See thats why recently i don't like staying at home?
because i will think too much
and i'm going nuts
i don't have the energy to create a conversation with anyone
unless they do so


I feel upset and down when im wronged by someone
even if it might be so insignificant
and so tiny
im affected
gnd. ~_~

I finally manage to get out of house after the whole matter was settled
but couldn't visit daniel because i thought it was too late le.
so went out to bugis street with nonie instead
just walk around. oh ya, i wanted to get my magazine thats why. haha!


Nothing particular much happened,
went to M.O.F japanese restaurant to eat
SALMON was totally rejuvenating.=D
and the curry craving was caused by the food sampling at cold storage.
hehe.


was walking at bugis village when a stranger sms me
Because i gave my number to a friend yesterday
so i thought it was my friend. This was what happened :
Stranger : Hello!
Me : Jon Lim?
Stranger : who the f*** is jon lim?
Stranger : Are you having an affair?
Me : Who are you?
Stranger : Wait wait i call you
calling......
Stranger : HELLOO!
Me : erm.. hello?
Stranger : WHO ARE YOU (beng tone)
Me : erm.. amanda...
*awkward silence*
Me: Did you get the wrong number? >< Stranger : ya i think so. SORRY AH SORRY AH

Totally hilarious.
the person sounded so BENG!
*giggle*


I finally replaced my broken shades
and continued to walk around until nonie sent me back home
yepp thats about it. nights!
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How weird when the person appears offline just to avoid people
and only comes in online when you added some comments on places where the person can see
and then the person comes in and joke with you
give you some life counselling and sort of things
when you're being serious and truthful about the things you meant
the person just jokes it off
Seemingly the person are trying to give up
pityful, angry, sad comments no longer affects the person
even if it did affected, the person no longer cares to cheer you on

So sorry with the playful attitude,
So regretful with the choice
So regretful with the lies said
God would not even present that second chance
Too late
A mean person doesn't deserve to love

Honestly to say, i'm kind of afraid
that a certain somebody is out there reading this blog
you'll never know what kind of things they are out to get you
especially a certain reaction that kind of appeals to them
like the "YES she is affected, bitch"
you get what i'm saying?


Seriously, tell me i'm not in this world for SOMEONE ELSE
but sometimes its for me right?
I don't need people in my life who doesn't needs me.
Drill that in my head


i'm really shittingly getting affected for nothing
Argh. Why this point of time man. lols


update later
i'm deciding whether i'll be able to get out of house
i'm in a little mood to spend off my ang paos
or maybe i just want to get out of the house
so i won't think so much
Seriously getting emotional. *knocks head*
later~

You saw this? WELL WELL, congratulations.
I'm currently temporary back for blogging.
just a sudden urge to.
Because i can't really find a place to let loose my thoughts
Wait. DUH -.- im not going to make it obvious
so, give up trying. hahah!!


Recently i have been revamping myself.
Not just appearance wise, but thoughts as well
There seems to have so many things that happen
That my mind alone can't take it
It's another tearful breakdown soon i guess
Especially from something i just saw
Which obviously did not appeal to me


You know what? I've been blaming myself for a lot of things
It includes those which are facts, and those which i think i should be blamed
Don't mind me for being emotional
I really DOES doubt my existence
I know that a lot of people would be urging to kick back those words to myself
But ya. I do have a lot going through my mind
And i just don't seem to know where i can release it


Fact 1: I make random friends sometimes for a reason.
Because they will always be totally unrelated to the things im troubled on
So i felt that i could talk to them
You know, sometimes, things have their reciprocal effect
You say one thing, it gets further, and they might get back to you
The world ain't an easy place, it definitely is not.


Of course, being a natural escapist
I wouldn't want to deny now, because i lives in self denial
I prefer denying things i don't want to see
I prefer messing up with my already bad memory
I prefer creating my own illusions and be delusional
But in the end, those things still gets to be
I'm after all a human, It gets to me
I get affected.


Ending it off,
I, am not the Happy-Go-Lucky person
I, can smile all i want and deny it and hide it
duh, explanations? i love to give, but i hate the consequences
I, can pretend that nothing had happened through my daily lives
But there is always one thing that i can't hide
My Freaking Idiotic Face That Tells You How I Feel
I've tried, i can't hold my emotions off my face
Excitement, Disappointment, Sadness, Or whatsoever
yes, You can see them


Face face face.
Just tear it off me
I'd be better of without it and be a perfect one.
Lols. THere isn't any perfect beings in the world.
Shit Life.

Hello (:, you are currently viewing leM0n's little space.
her real name is amanda ting
and lives miraculously on 14 march 1992
she believes in horoscope and is an emotional pisces
she can dream anytime anyday
and loves the magic act of disappearing
her inner swings picks up wind anytime and changes her mood
she would like to go japan,korea & paris someday(:
lastly, she needs love from people (:

LOVES :
♥leM0n!
♥ receiving things that comes with sincerity
♥ the night
♥ the bed
♥ running away from reality
HATES :
x dolls that looks like human, when they're not
x clowns
hates a big word for me, normally i only dislike things.:X

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