.Sunday, March 7, 2010 ' 2:58 AM Y
Don't wake me up, unless its in reality ♥
You saw this? WELL WELL, congratulations.
I'm currently temporary back for blogging.
just a sudden urge to.
Because i can't really find a place to let loose my thoughts
Wait. DUH -.- im not going to make it obvious
so, give up trying. hahah!!
Recently i have been revamping myself.
Not just appearance wise, but thoughts as well
There seems to have so many things that happen
That my mind alone can't take it
It's another tearful breakdown soon i guess
Especially from something i just saw
Which obviously did not appeal to me
You know what? I've been blaming myself for a lot of things
It includes those which are facts, and those which i think i should be blamed
Don't mind me for being emotional
I really DOES doubt my existence
I know that a lot of people would be urging to kick back those words to myself
But ya. I do have a lot going through my mind
And i just don't seem to know where i can release it
Fact 1: I make random friends sometimes for a reason.
Because they will always be totally unrelated to the things im troubled on
So i felt that i could talk to them
You know, sometimes, things have their reciprocal effect
You say one thing, it gets further, and they might get back to you
The world ain't an easy place, it definitely is not.
Of course, being a natural escapist
I wouldn't want to deny now, because i lives in self denial
I prefer denying things i don't want to see
I prefer messing up with my already bad memory
I prefer creating my own illusions and be delusional
But in the end, those things still gets to be
I'm after all a human, It gets to me
I get affected.
Ending it off,
I, am not the Happy-Go-Lucky person
I, can smile all i want and deny it and hide it
duh, explanations? i love to give, but i hate the consequences
I, can pretend that nothing had happened through my daily lives
But there is always one thing that i can't hide
My Freaking Idiotic Face That Tells You How I Feel
I've tried, i can't hold my emotions off my face
Excitement, Disappointment, Sadness, Or whatsoever
yes, You can see them
Face face face.
Just tear it off me
I'd be better of without it and be a perfect one.
Lols. THere isn't any perfect beings in the world.
Shit Life.
