.Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ' 3:19 PM Y
Don't wake me up, unless its in reality ♥
claps for wishix~
i like their blogskin so much xD
been sometime ever since i blog things.
well. yesterday was heart wrenching to think about it
i've never felt so lost in years.
for once i thought i had learnt my lesson from past experiences
but i guess, this aren't easy for me.
despite of being really sick for these few days
i cried a few times yesterday(i know its silly)
and to sleep this morning at 1 plus.
couldnt get sleep earlier cuz i had to settle some things in HS.
im really afraid that one day
i might lose my smile.
i beginning to groan about things happening around me
maybe thats what i let everyone feel about
that i am leading a good life or what so ever.
everyone has their own definitions what so sad about something
what so happy about something...
so whats the point of comparing every stuff in life?
life is never fair, if it was, everyone is perfect.
and perfect means that you cant even think for yourself anymore
i felt inspired for once to pour out everything on blog
but somehow, when i started typing
everything just seem to hold back.
i dunno what to say anymore.
i dun care who might be reading my blog later on
i hope no one would ask me what happen yesterday
i also hope no one would bring up anything about ART
im trying to break through the difficult,sad
and hard period for me now
and i sincerely apologise if no one would even
recognise me after today.
im changing for the better.
a note: if you think that i am still the same to you
that might just means that you still holds a special
part in my life im leading now.
as someone told me, crisis peels off the masks.
im seeing ppl changing more than i do now.
i see true colours, and at this moment of time
many things are put into a test.
when everything finishes, you'll noe wad i meant.
soo.. just treat this as another
siao symptoms acting
hahas. maybe i'll blog more later on...
