.Thursday, April 30, 2009 ' 11:35 PM Y
Don't wake me up, unless its in reality ♥
stupid internet. when i need you, you just have to breakdown. -_-.
and you signed in yourself when i was watching the television
and missed something important.. internet, YOU GOOD. ROAR.
anyways. today no lessons, since is attachment day.
well, there'll be attachment next week, cant wait. whee~
i was supposed to go back to school at 6 today for a briefing
my mood just went so damn bad suddenly
and i wasnt feeling that good.
oh ya, after the briefing i was supposed to go for ice skating trial. sad cannot go.
my head still hurts when i bend down.
the blood rush to the head, and it hurts(?). aye -_-
actually, theres a reason to my bad mood.
many many mistakes that i realised i made
many many regrets.
i hate myself for making them,
i hate it even more when i fail to realise them.
see the big word there?
HATEi stared at that particular thing for so long..
i had to keep myself under a cold shower for a long time just to cool myself down
despite of my ongoing flu.
honestly, im still thinking over it.
well. i can really do nothing
the only method i had to resort is something i dislike to do, but too bad
and the other mistake that led to this, dates back to january.
the sentence that i wanted to say so much here,
or anywhere people can see, i refused to. nyah nyah nyah nyah.~
i really felt like crying it out today
but tears cant really solve the problem
and especially when i wanted to, i couldnt do it since i didnt want
a particular one at home to worry over it.
and now, tears are filling up my whole body
and i cant release it.
-sigh-
whatever. i'll be fine after a sleep
blah blah blah. i feel so lifeless.
and those lessons i missed for the past two days
i felt that i couldnt catch up much.
partly it was because, i probably was the only few who actually listens in class.
sitting at the back, you witness everything
and there was so much distractions over at the back.
and once again, over another incident that happened
i feel like a god again.
i just couldnt understand why i was the only one who was able to answer to all queries.
and gosh. somebody said i was crazy for studying in library...
but that was because, i reached school too
FREAKING EARLYsadly, that was only for once. since yesterday i was too busy settling some people's work
when they just don't answer their calls from the school. simply
great.
i feel like staying in the library and catch up the IT and john santrock.
with finishing up the research work for 5/6 years old ...
oh yeah, for some reason, i got a new nickname.
panda. -_-. when everyone looks like panda to me, i was called one.
great. im the HMS mascot huh .. that makes me the god. lol.
(and please, sense my
SARCASM )
ok.. i think i'll head to bed now. nights~
