.Saturday, March 20, 2010 ' 11:44 PM Y
Don't wake me up, unless its in reality ♥
Today's plan to go to fareast was cancelled
Poor nonie has fallen sick
While she was sleeping, me and nana had fun
watching AFVs and laughing sadistically
Of course, there were times we "feel the pain"
I'm falling into the deep emo trap again
I hate it badly but its coming to me again
The "other one" that resides within me keep constantly bugging me
My ugly side. haha!
I have ugly thoughts, thats what i feel
I despise that side of me
physically, i can't deny its existence
that's how petty i am.
But i try to keep it away
At least to show the good side to people
But i'm not nicey goody all the time. haha!!
feeling tired, sleeping soon
hope nonie's alright. take care <3
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You keep saying that you like the me better last time
Honestly, i hadn't change
The me inside is still the same
Just that, i thought you might like it
So the me outside changed
You failed to notice it
I'm now badly hurt inside
People like me wishes for a time machine
One that will erase all regrets in life
But you know it ain't possible for now at least
The only thing you can do is to repent and try to cover it
But the hole is freaking big
and the repair is too fragile
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cryAll i meant about is one thing
The one thing that kept you confused
The one thing that you never knew
The one thing that i try covering up
The one thing that i'm afraid
The one thing that i hinted to you
The one thing that will co-exist in my dreams
The one thing you avoids
The one thing you're afraid of as well
The one thing that you have no confident about
The one thing you'll never accept about it
Because to you, i've changed
someone you dislike
something you hate
something you'd never expect
I did it all
I tried to leave
But i'm held back by myself
I have to make a choice soon
This is not the reality i wanted
