.Thursday, March 18, 2010 ' 11:15 PM Y
Don't wake me up, unless its in reality ♥
Say, someone just made me realise the change in me
But its not what normally people are
As in example
How a girl revamp themselves after a heartbreak
ever saw that happening before?
No, it did not happened to me
My reason was more stupid and foolish
and.. abnormal
Honestly, I don't feel good about myself now
I really... don't like the colour. haha!
Truthfully, it ain't a colour i wanted at first
I have no reason to console myself by saying its my fault
I feel like bleaching it again, as in to the colour i want
At least an one time thing you see
But my mother is objecting it now
Because she thinks it looks nice on me
If i don't bleach it, then when do i have to wait till?
I don't have much time to play runway
Because time is passing so fast that I'm losing my mind
And then again i want to cut my hair
Like really to find something that suits me
A big change that looks good on you that kind of thing
But i really hate the process of waiting for hair to grow longer again
The other thing, i have a paranoid hairdresser
"Not nice larh" "Not good on you"
those kind of discouraging words,
she doesn't even want to make the risk to try
Also, the "don't regret ah, i tell you le ah"
If it doesn't comes out good, its even more depressing right?
AND.
the hairstyle i want, she never manages to make it for me
maybe she was trying the "something similar"
and just make a little effort to it.
My brother and mother says just go jean yip
Just one time, do a good one on me
hello, i would want it as well
its freaking $200.
EVEN if you're paying for me
I would feel uncomfortable about it as well
Just like how i did my nails.
Someone just mentioned that maybe the person like the black hair me
I just ran through some of my past pictures
don't you agree? I think it still looks nicer. haha!
maybe im just not used to it.
I think i need another few more months to think about what to do with my hair
maybe years
my hair would reach the floor by then
and then its "Dark hair colour life"
Unless i out of nowhere got famous and be a rockstar or a model
play with all sorts of things.
That'll be cool LOL!
but that kind of life won't happen to me
At least i don't think it will. ROFL!
I've got the sudden urge to write a song
I'm so "inspired" by Kana Nishino
But well, it wouldn't last
I think i will just write crap ROFL!
Because details don't work on songs but books
I don't have the patience to write a book
nor enough touchy vocbulary to last my readers
Also, don't you think sometimes songs are so amazing?
i meant the lyrics. Because
Just a few words, it summarizes the start to the ending
i really admire song writers
Maybe i'll blog some shit crap later
but now, i vented everything out
thank god, i didnt cry just now. LOL
nights~
